Thoughts all over the place

Yes I know, a long time since the last post.. and as usual, I'm sorry again. For sure this is a very difficult post, cause it's the first one since I came to Spain.

[Past]    Expectations

I came here looking for a change in my life, maybe some knowledge, maybe a better future, maybe an answer for any of my questions.. I feel I didn't find any of them yet and I really don't know if I will at some point.. I just hope so..

[Present]    Imagination <> Reality

Once again life showed me that thinking abt some possibility in the future is completely different than living that moment.

I've started to work at a company I'm sure you've all heard of, but unfortunately the contract has been made through a consulting company which is not my ideal but taking in consideration that is my first job here I accepted it.

I'm considering the idea of me being bipolar (I can't stop thinking how many conflicts this word has created) cause I'm so happy at one moment and so sad the next.. I sometimes feel full and surrounded by peace and friends, but one second later I feel so lonely and that I'll be like that all this life.


Reading: Some days ago I bought "The Zahir". I've read half of it and I think it's very good cause these kind of books (very easy to read) help me to get into the habit of reading again.

Journey

I have a flight ticket with my name which has one line where you can read this:

        Mon, Mar 17      To: MADRID, SPAIN (MAD)

It's funny how sometimes a rainy day can help you realizing how big is the abyss between saying something and doing it.


Perfection

Sometimes I'm so happy with my life that my mind cannot accept any imperfection, it just aims for ideals.., off course life makes me think in a more "real" way..

I'm guilty of persuing perfection sometimes, yes.. maybe because I like to believe in nietzsche's Übermensch.. even when I didn't read "Also sprach Zarathustra" yet..

but, what is perfection? I think it's one of the most unreachable and subjective things..

Evolution teachs there's a very long way to human perfection, so for me is unreachable, at least in this life..

Which tool is perfect? No one can doubt that depends on the work to do.. so that's the subjective part.

This reminds me a nice story a professor told me once.. I hope you enjoy it like me!

Could we reach the perfection of the Enlightenment living a normal life?, I hope so.. :)

Stillness

As some of you already know, I spent two great weeks in Orlando (FL), which is, by the way, the city where Lenssa lives.. :)

What did show up in your mind when I said "Orlando"? For sure it was a talking mouse behind a frozen man.. well, let me tell you that luckily I haven't seen any animal-humanoid or similar during my trip.. I was more focused on spending a very peaceful worry-free time there, and for sure I did!!

Here you can see some of the nice pictures from Orlando and Saint Augustin:

The house
Saint Augustine
Cleaning the roof
Ethiopian dinner

I'm now back in BA getting ready for another trip in a couple weeks..

Acceptance

Somehow I always thought to accept things was my worst nightmare. I don't just want to live and accept, I wanna be able to brake the destiny and change the future as long as -I feel like it-. But unfortunately, that happens just in fantasy.. everyone knows people would have to accept many things in the real life.

I think I share with many people how hard is to accept we don't control all the factors implied in a decision.. and it's even worse when that decision is about to change our lives.

I consider myself a very opened person, who accepts many things and tries to interact with others enjoying how they are or will be more than how they were in the past, which makes me proud of myself because that's what I like in another people too.

Here I want to share with you these words that I found very appropiated.. for another topic, because doesn't talk about acceptance.. ;) but no doubt they are worthy to read:

"It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho'
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven; that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive , to seek, to find, and not to yield."

                                Fragment of Tennyson's 'Ulysses' poem.