Enjoying the acceptance

Lately I felt I'm getting used to Madrid.. I'm meeting nice new people (also in normal situations), gathering with friends, enjoying time by myself, being organized and proactive with my own life and taking advantage of my surrounding..

I'm also very curious about travelling around the globe.. I have many places I want to visit and I know later might be too late.. But I also think I need more than just enthusiasm to plan such a thing.. we'll see..

Oh.. I have a barely new CouchSurfing account ! :)


"Denial is the most predictable of all human responses"

Hurted by the unknown

I honestly thought I was walking step by step, I thought I was being natural, I thought I was giving and taking nothing more than enough, trying to not push and the worst part was when I believed I was more important than I really was.. but I was totally wrong, and that is a wound that sometimes hurts very much and it will for a long long time.. [feelings are mixed up, so it is very hard to recognize them.. maybe disappointment, frustration, anger, sadness or something else]

How can I shut down my mind? I don't want to analyze, otherwise I will end up in another completely different life before I notice..

"Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength, and your greatest weakness..."

pictur.es

Here some pics I've uploaded:

LaMarea & Infiesto
My new Look
Segovia
Paella at Luis's

One step beyond

The past month I've abandoned the so many things I have in my to-do list, and today was the perfect day to start working on them again.. so I got a few things done. And not only that, I enjoyed very much helping my to-do list to evolve, change, get bigger or tinier (impossible to empy)!

I have so much to live yet.. everyone is looking for something and no one has any clue of what do they want.. at some point I'm part of that, but today I felt very thankful for the past (not just the nice happy moments) and hopeful for the future (tomorrow will come full of changes and new experiences)!! those thoughts are not usual in me at all.. maybe I didn't wake up yet of some sort of dream.. maybe I'm starting to learn to let go..

Would it be a sign of the stability I was looking for? One thing I'm learning lately in my life is not to think about the future and try to be prepared for everything, unfortunately we need to build more and more shields while we grow up..

[No one knows what the future will bring]

One thing I have to do is to upload some pics.. I'm living the typical effect of digital cameras: so easy to take so many pictures, but then it requires so much time to organize and select them..

Sorry for my english, I'm kinda sleepy, but I wanted to publish this anyway.. :D